Is This Thing On? Let's catch up.

At long last, I've stumbled my way back here. I'm not exactly proud per se of the hiatus I've taken here, but I've been practicing giving myself a bit more grace. Life is a fickle and unpredictable thing! I've been out here living it.

As someone who struggles with confidence and at times authenticity, maybe a part of me didn't feel right about getting on here and putting "filler" up here. I'm a big believer in intention. Doing things because they MEAN SOMETHING.

In the past 2 years, life has changed a lot. I'm ENGAGED (wow), I've learned more professionally than I ever thought I could in such a short period of time. I've worked on myself. A lot. I've made mistakes (plenty). I've had successes (I try to appreciate them as they come). As I approach my 30's, although I'm only 26 as I write this... I've begun to think about what I truly want out of my life and what I want it to look like in a perfect world. What passions do I want to pursue? What do I want to give my energy to? What does my dream lifestyle look like and how can I get as close to it as possible? Lots of question marks. But so is your 20's I suppose.

As I write this, I feel very appreciative for this platform allowing me to be nothing but myself. Something I can truly call my own and not hesitate to say anyway I might be feeling. I often feel an occupation like my own can trap you in a bit of a "happy box," I feel like I'm never allowed to be or appear sad. I wouldn't say I'm a sad person, but it's a complicated emotion to feel when you're supposed to crack a mic and make somebody else's day. I am learning to not just say what I think I should say, but rather my own thoughts.... unfiltered and genuine. I am trying to get better at not caring about being understood, but just being heard. Valid within myself and feeling safe.

I'm going to do my best to build up consistency with my content. It may be shitty. But it's content. I may promote this, I may not. As to what to expect from this little blog going forward, I really can't tell you. I've learned to appreciate so many sides of the music business that I love to discuss. Perhaps diving into a little bit of that along with lifestyle content as it comes. You want Wedding Cricut DIYs?! I GOT TONS. The directions would be sloppy, but they get the job done. Nice talking again. Talk soon! (Here's to hoping)

Onward & Upward,


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